SURRENDER TO LOVE

8/17/17   Life is my lab, my proving ground.  “I surrender to love” is my current experiment.  What will happen if I let go into love instead of obsessing about the latest attack of those who want  my sister’s therapeutic community closed? Or, if I substitute surrendering to love for thoughts about what I see as a heartless decision of her home’s superintendent to prohibit circulation, via the facility’s intranet, of a notice of another guardian’s memorial service?  

Yesterday, the result of substituting “surrender to love” for being mad about her refusal of help was that I created a more beautiful notice and walked from house to house on campus, 12 houses + offices, connecting with people, meeting some caregivers I hadn’t met before, catching up with some I had, and hearing news of some I’d not seen for a while.  As I went along, I wasn’t  conscious of love, but the reception I felt was universally warm, in some cases enthusiastic, and my heart was happy as I finished and drove home.  

Today, each time I consciously let go into love, it got a little easier.  Did it change anything that anyone else was doing?  I don’t know because I was too busy doing what I needed to be doing to check.  Did it feel better?   Definitely!  Release into love felt much better than the feelings resulting from the negative thoughts it replaced.  And, then, It was easier to move through the things I wanted to accomplish.