SURRENDER TO LOVE
Lowe’s
I will need a new roof this year. My house sits on the downside of a hill, making the roof the more prominent feature. On the Lowe’s website, I found a red roof that knocked my socks off. I started planning a new color scheme around it. It was FUN. I got quite attached to my vision. Then, when I called to find out if they had it in stock so I could see the real deal, I was told “no”. Not only did they not carry it at that store, but that color was not sold anywhere in the Northwest. Not in the NW! That’s absurd, I thought. So I called the manufacturer. Their customer service rep confirmed it’s only available in the NE area of the country. After more discussion, I finally learned of a process by which I could buy it, but freight would be expensive and other problems could complicate the project.
It took me a few days, but I did surrender, even though I was still forgetting the “love” part. I want to make life easier, not harder, I told myself.. So, yesterday, I went to Lowe’s to see what they had in stock. Nothing but drab, drab, drab. But, I’m fairly good with colors. So I decided to play with paint color chips to try to come up with a combination I could be happy with. Tracy, who helped me find the roofing supplies was unusually helpful. I explained that I was there to figure out an alternative to the roof I really wanted, but which wasn’t available anywhere in Seattle. He helped me find 3 roofing samples and walked with me to the paint department where I spread them out on a counter.
“Don’t worry about putting them back”, he said before leaving, “I’ll do that for you.” So, for the next hour or so, I played with colors. I’d created one or two possible combinations when he returned.
“How’re you doing?” he asked.
“I’m closer, I said. This tan is a nice color, but I’m trying to find colors to work with it that aren’t drab. At my age, who knows how many years I have left? I don’t want to spend them in a drab house.”
He laughed. “Let me see what I can do,” he said, going around the counter to a computer. “What’s the name of the color they told you you couldn’t get here?”
I smiled, remembering our earlier chat when Tracy had told me he had started some companies, including the one that eventually became Zip Car. But, then, he’d added, “but I no longer have the fire in me that start-ups take.”
“See,” I said, “you still do have some fire left in you.” Clearly, he was tackling a job that he knew was supposed to be impossible.
He just looked at me, smiled and went back to the computer. After pulling up the product info and confirming it wasn’t available through usual channels, he started looking for a work-around he had thought of. Finding he didn’t know how to make the computer do what he wanted it to, he asked a colleague for help. He was directed to another computer in another part of the store. That didn’t work either, but from there, he was directed to still another area where the computer was expected to have the needed capability. On the way, we encountered a manager whom he knew to be knowledgeable and creative. When he told her what he had in mind, she explained why it probably would not work, but she also said Lowe’s could special order and deliver the product if I paid the freight and that overages would be returnable. In fact, she advised ordering generously so the contractor would have what he needed. That information relieved me of the fear of complications with my contractor.
Next, together, they strategized which particular person in the store would be the best to approach with the unusual proposal and, then, took my contact information. They said to expect a call from her today.
As I stood with them, I was aware of feeling awestruck at the support I was receiving. I felt immersed in love.
Ever since meditating in the morning, whenever I thought about it, I’d been hearing in my head that the red roof would happen, but I’d been discounting it, arguing back with my concern about contractor complications.
Will I wind up with the red roof I’d been attached to, but had given up? Probably, but what now seems more important is the Love I experienced, being with Tracy and Laura in the fullness of the moment as they worked together on my behalf. Whatever color the roof is, every time I see it, I will be reminded of what can happen when I surrender to Love.